Finally? Hope so..

12th March 2014.
Nobody has any clue about how happy I am today. A burden that has been there for almost a year has finally said goodbye. It was around 4:30 today that I got to know about it. I kept smiling while the college official was putting stamp on my documents. A long fought battle was finally won.
The future looks ambitious to me. The future seemed to congratulate me at that very moment and it seemed to inspire me a lot more. I called up Ma. She was so happy to hear about it.
As I walked back home, a long lost joy and a feeling of relief surrounded me in such a way, that I felt lovely at that very moment.
A stupid memory has kept covering me up all this while. That memory will probably stay for a long time, if not forever. But all I need to learn is to live with it. Looking forward is the only option when things start interfering with your ambitions. Looking ahead is your only choice when things start distracting you from your goal.
All this while when I was looking to get over her, getting back at her seemed appropriate. But today, just for that one happy reason a lot seemed meaningless. A lot to achieve, but only for the sake of my pride and my parent's happiness.
It's a long road ahead. Distraction will be that sexy hitchhiker trying to get a ride, by showing off her boobies. Have a great look. Admire it. But the road doesn't end over there, right?

The sun shines to help you lead..
The road that you travel, makes you believe..
The love and blessing, the joys of care.
The lovely little wishes, seems all fair..

He rides along, with hope in his heart..
For he'll never walk alone..
He rides alone with a dream to live..
For he'll walk, but this time, he won't leave..

THY DEATH! MY GIFT!!

Danish walked around the market place to buy some vegetables. After shifting from Delhi, it was his first market outing in Darjeeling. He had a list with him, which was pre provided by his mom over the phone. There were vendors shouting in Hindi while they were trying to sell their stuff. The customers made more noise as the entire world around him, seemed to bargain with every price that was put forward to them.

"Bhaisaab, we bought potato worth Rs. 12/kg two days ago and today you are asking for Rs. 14/kg?"

"Kya karein memsaab, mehengai ka zamana hai, ok, for you I'll make it Rs. 13.50"

"Rehne do bhaisaab, I'll buy it from somewhere else"

It was the same story all around the market. From meat shop to grocery shop, the only thing Danish noticed was the amazing negotiating skills of the Darjeeling localities. Danish didn't know how to bargain. He was born and brought up in a family where it wasn't ever necessary for him to bargain for anything.
He shifted to Darjeeling as he was transferred by the tourism department of India for a 2 year project.

As he strolled around the market place, Danish somehow dodged himself in between the crowded lane and got himself standing in front of a ration shop. Well, since he was new to the town, he didn't have much to buy from a ration shop. But as he was about to leave, something caught his eyes. There was this pretty young local lady trying to bargain the kerosene price with the ration shop owner. Now that sounded damn funny for Danish as he wondered why on earth will someone bargain something at a ration shop. As the lady turned around a bit while she was busy negotiating the price of kerosene, Danish realized that it was the same lady whom he met while coming out of his apartment.

"Hey there! Didn't we meet a while back at the main gates of my apartment?"

The lady was quite surprised at the sudden approach of a strange man but she recollected the incident and responded with an assuring smile. But immediately after, she got back to the business she was dealing with.

"Bhaisaab, abhi mere pass bas 10 rupay hi hai.. Mujhe phirse ghar jana padega paise lane, please de dijiye"

Danish now realized that she wasn't actually negotiating the price but she was actually forced to not pay the full amount because she did not carry enough cash. Oh how stupid he was, to think that somebody will bargain at a ration shop.

"Hey hi.. I am Danish. I guess you stay at my society! How about I pay up the remaining amount and get it sorted now?"

"No, it's alright, I'll talk to him as I have been a long time customer at his shop. I am sure the owner will understand the situation."

But to her hard luck, the owner did not pay much attention to her requests. She looked helpless. Danish insisted on paying the remaining amount. She did not even seem interested in talking to Danish.

But was something bothering her? Why was she getting all freaked out because the owner wasn't allowing her a temporary discount on Kerosene? She can surely come back tomorrow and get some kerosene.

"Here Mam, take it, I'll pay the remaining amount and you give it to me back whenever it seems convenient to you" 

Before she could say anything, Danish handed the shopkeeper a 50 rupee note. The shopkeeper was himself getting irritated and further arguments did not seem to be an appropriate option.

The lady filled up her jar and thanked Danish.

"I'll pay you back your money by tomorrow morning, I promise."

"It's alright lady, you can take your time, I am not going anywhere."

The lady smiled back but looked quite disturbed.

"Is everything ok with you? Are you going back home?"

"Yes yes, everything's fine. But I'll have to go to my home now. You can continue shopping."

"Strange little lady", smiled Danish, as he saw her leave the market in a hurry.
"Oh damn, I forgot to ask her name."
"That won't be a problem as I will surely ask her name tomorrow when I meet her", he kept wondering.

Eventually after 2 hours of vegetable shopping, Danish got back home with both his hand filled with stuff, he believed, he won't be needing much.
He kind of liked that girl? Didn't he. Danish smirked as he kept thinking of the small chitchat session he had with his neighbor.

He cooked some maggi and decided to sleep off. With headphones plugged in his ear already, Danish changed the Fm station and started listening to some Gazals. He dozed off pretty soon.

But at around midnight, did he hear a scream? A scream that somehow became a part of his dream. The avalanche came done so fast in the movie that he heard the girl beside him scream in the movie hall....

Danish had always been an early riser. He got up and dressed up to go for a morning walk. As he opened the main door to his apartment, a fifty rupee note came flying inside which was initially stuck in between the door and the wooden frame.

"Ah that lady, god she is so crazy that she couldn't wait for a couple of more hours?" wondered Danish.

He got down to the basement and was completely taken aback to see what was happening in his society. Almost a hundred people were standing there in a cold Darjeeling morning looking all disturbed and tensed about something that Danish surely did not have any clue about.

He tried to make his way in between the crowd.

"Hey, I am Danish. I am new to this society, Can you please tell me what's going on?" Danish asked an young guy who seemed equally disturbed like the rest of the society.

"You see there?", the young guy pointed at the 5 floor window.

Danish looked up and saw that heavy smoke was coming out through the window and there was the almost 4 to 5 firemen trying to bring the fire under control.

"Oh my god! What happened?"

"An young lady of around 22 used to stay over there. Quite pretty. Some of her neighbors said that she was having some kind of trouble in her life. She burnt herself alive yesterday night at around 11:30. Her scream woke us all. But none of us were able to save her."

Somehow in that chilly morning, Danish's palms started getting sweaty. The fifty rupee note that he was holding inside his sweatshirt, started to get wet in his sweaty palms.

If only he did not pay the price.. 

EDUCATE - TO DO OR NOT TO!!

EDUCATION!!

The moment we start dealing with it, we understand that we have got ourselves into a real big mess. The pressure to compete and perform, sits on our head 24/7 and we are always concerned about our performance. Yes, we like the option of living a very lavish lifestyle, decorated by our father's hard earned money, but the concept of education does not fascinate us much, does it?

Being a part of this generation, I have learnt one very important thing. The generation gap between the 70s and the beginning of this century is HUGE. We have had nonsense people everywhere and they have existed even before the day KARL MARX started to confuse people. 

At the age of 10/11, we, human being (read clueless-pupils), have an urge to know a lot of things. Most of them are related to our sexual organs and how they should "(mal)function". But other than that, we also tend to have interest towards other subjects. Some have interest towards sports, some have interest towards history while the rest fantasizes themselves of being a pilot. Oh well! I wanted to be a pilot too. But my aunt manipulated me with the concept that a pilot flies a plane upside down. My ambitions came straight down to being a rickshawala. "SAFE and SECURE+down to earth [literally]."

I have never been a bright student who had a tendency of getting good marks at a consistent basis. The only subject I used to score above 80 was mathematics. But enough of my bragging stories, lets get straight to the point.

What I mean to say that EDUCATION for us, has become a subject of complain. But as they say, EDUCATION is supposed to enhance our knowledge, intellect and our presentation. Oh, they are correct, believe me!! But those who say it, do they really put that education in order to fulfill these motives? I don't think so. 

EDUCATION, nowadays, have become a process of completing the syllabus in order to sit for the exam. In a 40 minute class, the teacher gives you a note of 5 pages, which takes up almost half an hour time. The remaining 10 she explains those 5 pages. 80% of the class turns out to be temporary DEAF-HEADS, the remaining 18% plans to gobble up when they go back home and the other 2% come from outer space and they actually understand what the teacher wanted to explain. Hence, the teacher gets her favorite student. 

But why does all roads lead to ROME and hereby ROME, I mean EXAMS. I have been a tutor for almost 3 years now. All the student that I have "tried" to nurture, have something very common in them. They all had exams everytime I went over to their house. Schools have decided to take exams after every 2 months with the excuse that a child may not be able to take up the pressure of learning the entire syllabus and sit at the end of the year and appear for a complete year-exam. 

Thereby, a student of 8 years old is more concerned about performing well in his semi-half yearly exam and is not bothered by the fact that he might forget what he learnt in February because he is too busy preparing for his exams which will be on September. 

EDUCATION is knowledge, we hungry bunch of kids, are always trying to know something or the other in our lives. The urge to know about the gaming world has been doomed as addiction and illogical by our seniors. WHY? As if the entire PARENT dynasty has never smoked a cigarette. 

Oh, btw, did I tell you that when children are asked to NOT DO something, they actually end up doing it? Oh, you already knew that? 

Good! 

Now lets move on.

WE, are terrified and angry at the concept of EDUCATION. We are pressurized to complete our syllabus in order to get good marks in our exams and THAT'S IT. That is the only reason why we are asked to go to school? That's the reason why almost the entire children dynasty who dream of becoming something different one day, end up studying engineering, medical in order to have a secure lifestyle? They end up giving bank exams so that they get something to feed themselves? 

The word AMBITION should be politely asked to FUCK OFF from the dictionary, cause there will be children, everytime they are born, who will keep dreaming of becoming something different and a day will come when they won't be afraid of "pursuing their dreams" instead of appearing for IIT JEE.

I'd hereby calm my voice down. EDUCATION is important. And we are always seeking for some kind of knowledge or the other. With EDUCATION, exams are necessary too. Exams are important, but they should not become the most important thing. A job of a student is that he should not be forced to WORK. Leave a guy inside a library and provide him with some pizzas. He will end up gobbling up a book which he finds to be the most interesting. Let the student chose his/her subject of interest and nurture him with what he/she wants to become. Don't provide him with options because a child's mind thinks beyond what a teacher provides him/her with. Let them love it. Don't spoil the enthusiasm. 

We all have something in our mind. Something that we think, if we can achieve we can be a millionaire. If we aim for being a millionaire, I am sure, even if we don't get to become one and we try our level best of becoming one, we will end up being happy. Because you know why? Because it was our dream that we were allowed to pursue and we gave our 100% in it. 

Heres to hoping for a more excited world trying to live their life in the most legal yet adventurous way!! 

To Dust Returnest.....

Duncston clearly remembers what she said the last time he saw her. It's been almost 10 years now and the words still poke him quite often. It sounded so worse when she said it, didn't it? But now as he looks back, he thanks her for saying it to him.

He was barely able to stand properly when she said those words to him. He felt as if his life has come to a halt and he has no clue about anything thereafter. He looked at her and couldn't believe that she actually said it. I was standing beside him and her and I was shocked too. I saw him wait for that very day so anxiously, so that he will finally have the guts to go up to her before he leaves the city. He dressed in the nicest way possible and hesitated so much while asking me, "Do I look good enough for her". I was busy reading the 2nd last page of the newspaper. I barely had a look at him and I told him that he looks perfect. I had to dress up quickly. I had no idea why I was asked to join in. But I didn't mind because I was sure of some entertaining drama that might happen.

But I did not expect her to say that to him. I have known Duncston for almost my entire life now. I have known every minute detail in his life. Why would SHE say something like that? I looked at him. I never saw that look before. I couldn't help to comfort him because I never thought it will ever be necessary to comfort Duncston. 

Just as she was about to go, Duncston pulled her back and told her the one thing that I clearly remember. He said "Beautiful".

I hated him for saying it to her. I thought he was being fanciful and outrageously impractical. But today I know why he said that to her. He was being honest and he was being thankfull. 

Today he shall meet her again. Today he plans to tell her that he still loves her. But I will stop him this time. Because I am still his conscience and he has grown old enough to prioritize me. I couldn't stop him that day. 

But today, I see him happy without a person. But I also see him look at her picture as if she was standing right in front of him. A problem she was, but was more of an inspiration. He took out the positive and I see him smile because he is doing what he always wanted to. 

They will meet again today. He wants to say it to her. But he won't. Because even though she is there, he knows she was never there holding his hands.

LAST ONE?

Staying alone at my house has never been a habit. With any kind of problems arising, I always start speaking to mom, if the reason was "her" or if "she" failed to solve it. Maa was always there for a solution that she was never aware of. 

But today, she and dad left for Durgapur. The house looks empty now. The half completed dinner is still on the table. The laptop is stuck on Suits Season 3 Episode 2. The entire evening seemed to experience a mental breakdown as I kept doing something I wasn't supposed to. This was probably the first time, I did not watch the game properly. Amidst all superstitions, I failed to pursue one. But that's alright cause it was my decision.

A helpless feeling about her safety some 1000 kms away meant everything at that time. One lead to another and I ended up contacting a friend of her's. I knew I wasn't doing the right thing. But I had to, didn't I? I didn't have proof to show my condition at that moment.

But I fucked up. I fucked up real bad. I realized how wrong I was the entire time. But as they describe it, I am in love. I tried my best to keep that feeling unconditional, but I failed so badly. She pointed out my faults. Faults, that I thought I never did. Living with these faults, doesn't seem to be an option. I made some mistakes and those mistakes lead me to believe something that I don't think I can live with. I'll try for some hours. Mom and dad are away. I can't even talk to her right now. I can't even walk up to the adjacent room and start a conversation with a silly excuse that I am having a "back pain".

This is a what they call a "pain". Too mushy? 

"She" will be without a problem. 

Gorgeous Birthday to YOU!

Ah well! 

It's your day today. I don't have much of an opportunity to cover your body with gifts. Neither do I have that outrageous romantic abilities to build a virtual cover up.

All I have is "words", and as you read this blog, I want to make sure that you read this with the broadest smile on your lips. Doesn't matter if your teeth start peeping up, you shall not stop smiling. If you may, you can laugh out too.

I wish I was the first one to wish you "Happy birthday" and guess what, I won myself a jackpot...

But today is not about me, so I should just shut up and continue talking about YOU. 

Yes YOU!! Miss Akshaya Singhal. What a powerful name, by god. Trust me, I love calling out your name. It's like Akshayaaa... AKKKshayAA... and many more...

So here am I, sitting and trying to write something to cover up my unavailibity in your literal world right now.

You must be cutting a cake now.. Ah, doesn't matter cause you are reading it now and I have written this earlier today and I am again sure that there's not a single bit of cake left at your place now. Did you get fat in one day? Cause trust me, you ain't fat...AT ALL!!

Now a little something about you. A little bit about the person I haven't seen till date, but about someone whom I know inside out. I am still a stranger until we officially meet, but you, my dear is something more than just another person to me. 

You came in from nowhere. Ah I agree I started it off, but you responded when you had the option of not responding. If that was a crime I'd like you to take 40% share and become my partner in crime.

Cheeky? Maybe.

Then days went by. I got to know everything about you. I never thought I'd be deserving enough to be a listener to everything you had to say. And that's when I believed I wasn't random to you. I have been a dick sometimes,...... Sometimes... Ok a lot of times..!! Seriously? *Piche hi pad jatein ho* But you have always been a sweetheart...even you tried to be a bitch. ;)

But today is your birthday...and I want to be extremely honest with you.. There are very few things I have come across that have made me believe that I made the wrong choice on June 11th. But the fact that not everything is perfect reminds me to give more importance to the ones that tells me that I made the right decision on that day.

You ain't perfect. Nobody is. You are just close to being one. :)

I have been mad at you a lot of times, but I don't know how, you seem to look beautiful every freaking time. 

Do you look beautiful now? Ah I wish I could stop you from saying your ever famous "NO" and say the opposite myself.

Akshaya Singhal. You became a hope when I had the opportunity to lose it. I knew I had you in my life and you became the best medicine to what I suffered from and you know it very well what I am talking about right now. 

I am a witness to everything that you have come through and I know you are a better and stronger person now. I want you to look at the mirror everyday and feel confident about yourself and say "There is no goddamn lady in this world who can match my looks, I am freakishly gorgeous"

I am not at all exaggerating now..... Maybe a little. Hahahaha. Don't kill me now.

I can't wait to be pushed on the road. And that will be a challenge cause I have a little bit idea about how stupid is Delhi's traffic. 

                   

I hope you had a lovely day... And the loveliest birthday of your life. I know there are things that bothers you, but HEY... Look back and see how well you have recovered. It was you who fought against all odds and now you are in a better position. 

It's Happiness. It's YOU.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=anNRry5yfIQ <-- Do check this out! :D

<3 <3

Happy birthday lady. Happiness for you. A lot from my side too. :)

WHAT CAN BE? CAN BE.. CAN BE...

Well this blog/write up may seem extremely absurd and un-impossible.

[My Dictionary - UN-IMPOSSIBLE means EXTREMELY IMPOSSIBLE, so please don't judge]

I am hereby making some predictions that will, accordingly to me, come true before human beings cease to exist.

Prediction Number 1 - 

"CINEMA will reach a NEW dimension"

Motion Pictures came into existence even before Netaji Subhash Chandra Bose took birth. I know there is no connection between films and Netaji, but I just pointed out for the sake of pointing out. Anyway, lets get directly into the pond. As we know, animation has become a very important part of the film industry in any goddamn corner of the world. Even a porn addict will find it extremely amusing to watch an animated movie like KUNG FU PANDA (my favorite), BOLT, CAROLINE, CLOUDY WITH A CHANCE OF MEATBALLS and bla bla bla......

From Black and White movies to colored ones. From 2D to 3D. We already have a stuff like 7D. Physical effects? Smells? Your chair will start moving and will hump your ass!! Yes that is what they call a 7D. 

Now the Prediction - In another 50 years, if you stay alive, you will get to feel yourself a part of the movie. Special movies will be made where you will be provided with all the effects which will make you feel as if you are a part of the movie. Something like a "20D".

But nothing beats 36D, eh?

Oh btw, I hope you are not wishing a 20D porn movie! Naughtyness ki haad hoti hai...

Prediction Number 2 - 

"A step over SUN"

Yes, this is probably one of the toughest things to achieve for scientists. But as we look back 1000 years from now, most of the things that we see today were either not believed to be true or the people of that world did not have any freaking clue about whatever is happening right now.

"Who would have thought in 1013 that they can learn Kamasutra over the internet instead of sneaking through their princess's balcony"

"Hey Maharaja, I had a prediction that if you stay alive for another 1000 years, I can find you the most beautiful bride from any part of this world from this very Mahal.. It will be known as shaadi sindur com"

Anyway, getting back to the pond, stepping on the sun seems impossible now providing the temperature and also that it is not a solid object like the moon. But this is my prediction and HEY!! I told you not to judge.. Keep reading...Stop judging...stop stop..... STOP!!

Prediction Number 3 -

"India will play Football World Cup"

This is more or less a random prediction, but HEY! This is still the toughest one in the entire Sports fraternity of India. If you look at the game that India plays, I am sure you must be thinking that the day we will qualify for the world cup, Argentina would have won 50 World Cup trophy and Brasil would have happily retired from the game after winning 116 World Cup trophy. It's 2013 and I am sure by that calculation, India's qualification in the World Cup will not be before... Um... 3013!! YES, Exactly 1000 years from NOW!!

Since you have stopped judging me, for a while, this is one of the predictions I partially do not want to be true. I want India to play Football World Cup before I die.

Prediction Number 4  -

"Jobs will be provided in Facebook and Twitter or other Social Networking Website"

Working from Home is quite a popular concept in today's world. Freelancing has become one of the most demanding jobs in the teenage dynasty. Writing articles, inserting data, social media management.... Most of these are nowadays accessed by a person sitting at home. Home Based works do not require any particular timing but might require a particular time frame. 
Anyway, the importance of the prediction is that, very soon, we might come across various jobs that can be done from your home without bearing the pain of going out and working from a particular office.
"Hey can we drive a plane by controlling it from our house?"

"Yes you can, if you don't want to live"

Smartass people everywhere....!! Stick to the point dumbass..

Prediction Number 5 -

"Mobile phones will be available to children belonging among age groups 5-8 and other SHIT.."

Jyoti Basu was the first Indian to use a cell phone in India. That was in the year 1996 when I still did not have any clue about the existence of football. 

Phew!! Long time huh? 

My father got his first cell phone in the year 2002, I guess. He was using a Nokia "MOTA WALA MODEL". Oh freak! You should have seen my face when I touched it. I didn't give it back for the next 12 hours. The snake game was the best thing ever.
Anyway, as we get back to the pond.... Again.. I got my first cell phone at the age of 17 when I got into college. A bit back dated? Maybe, but not outrageously beyond time. The same people around me (read seniors, neighbors, relatives) who criticized me for craving a mobile phone before my high school pass out, have now handed their children a very valuable android phone even before they have completed their Class 10 exams. But everything seems normal now. Because their POVS have changed and handing their child an android has basically become a safety precaution.

To that safety precaution, we say... "LOL"

"Hey brah, got a new Xperia, got the best dad in the world man... So how about you send some porn clips in whatsapp"

"Brah, will do it, look here brah, got some pot... *insert marijuana pics*"

Prediction Number 6 -

"Usage of marijuana will spread rapidly in youngsters"

This is already valid, ain't it? I don't smoke and this is not my problem. Marijuana is now being made legal in some parts of the world. In about 50 years now, the governments of most of the countries will be run by people who once used to smoke up weed...or maybe still does.
If 70% of the teenage group are into smoke ups and marijuana, then these very smart people will run the country one day. In 50 years time, I believe, the ones who will not smoke up will by default get a lifetime achievement award, by just being different.

NOTE - I am no way against the use of marijuana. It's a personal choice and I won't give a fuck until it starts bothering me, personally.

Oh No shut up! I am not criticizing. Just pointing out something that is rapidly becoming viral. 

Got a problem? 
I told you... 

DO NOT J.U.D.G.E

Prediction Number 7 [LAST ONE] -

"The system shall change... Education, political, economic and every deep shit problem we are facing right now"

If you read the topic carefully, I mentioned that the situation will change...
Now the situation will not change a little bit but will involve evolution. Nowhere did I mention the word, positive change. Change will come. Better or worse, only time will tell...

Some wise man once told me :-

The value of  the Dollar is around 60 INR. In 5 years, it will become 70 INR. In 10 years it will become 75 INR. In 15 years, it will become 70 INR. In 30 years, it will become 30 INR......

Now I was very surprised at this prediction. Seemed hayward. I asked him about such a prediction that started off with the worsening economic condition and how did it end up with such impressive rates. The answer that was provided was pretty mesmerizing..

"Let this generation come to power"

I look around and I see a generation which can provide a lot more than the previous generation. We have a lot to learn from our older generation. The smartness our generation possesses can be put to a great cause, ONLY......ONLY IF we decide to do that. But I see selfish people around... I see people who started off with ambitions of becoming a pilot, navy man, army officer, singer, dancer, and ended up in an engineering college trying to get it safe. Now these very people sit back home and tells people "WE NEED TO CHANGE THE SYSTEM"

Abey Ghanta change... How the fuck will we change it if we all look for safe jobs and not bring anything different to this world?

The one change that I have always wished for, is the change in the education system/style.. I still hope for a type of education which won't force you to complete your syllabus for the sake of doing well in your exams. An education system that people will love, a system that will educate us and not pressurize us. Oh common!! Don't you know we all want to learn something every now and then. We are a bunch of curious little fellows and you take it away from us when you force it.
The day teachers won't say anymore "You don't have to know that, it's not there in your syllabus", that will be a day when my childhood dream/prediction will come true.


Hereby making these predictions, I swear to myself that I shall work hard enough to fulfill my dreams and create a difference. The necessary amount of difference that I can provide. 

"Life is not just about living, but to know the purpose of staying alive"