LAST ONE?

Staying alone at my house has never been a habit. With any kind of problems arising, I always start speaking to mom, if the reason was "her" or if "she" failed to solve it. Maa was always there for a solution that she was never aware of. 

But today, she and dad left for Durgapur. The house looks empty now. The half completed dinner is still on the table. The laptop is stuck on Suits Season 3 Episode 2. The entire evening seemed to experience a mental breakdown as I kept doing something I wasn't supposed to. This was probably the first time, I did not watch the game properly. Amidst all superstitions, I failed to pursue one. But that's alright cause it was my decision.

A helpless feeling about her safety some 1000 kms away meant everything at that time. One lead to another and I ended up contacting a friend of her's. I knew I wasn't doing the right thing. But I had to, didn't I? I didn't have proof to show my condition at that moment.

But I fucked up. I fucked up real bad. I realized how wrong I was the entire time. But as they describe it, I am in love. I tried my best to keep that feeling unconditional, but I failed so badly. She pointed out my faults. Faults, that I thought I never did. Living with these faults, doesn't seem to be an option. I made some mistakes and those mistakes lead me to believe something that I don't think I can live with. I'll try for some hours. Mom and dad are away. I can't even talk to her right now. I can't even walk up to the adjacent room and start a conversation with a silly excuse that I am having a "back pain".

This is a what they call a "pain". Too mushy? 

"She" will be without a problem. 

Gorgeous Birthday to YOU!

Ah well! 

It's your day today. I don't have much of an opportunity to cover your body with gifts. Neither do I have that outrageous romantic abilities to build a virtual cover up.

All I have is "words", and as you read this blog, I want to make sure that you read this with the broadest smile on your lips. Doesn't matter if your teeth start peeping up, you shall not stop smiling. If you may, you can laugh out too.

I wish I was the first one to wish you "Happy birthday" and guess what, I won myself a jackpot...

But today is not about me, so I should just shut up and continue talking about YOU. 

Yes YOU!! Miss Akshaya Singhal. What a powerful name, by god. Trust me, I love calling out your name. It's like Akshayaaa... AKKKshayAA... and many more...

So here am I, sitting and trying to write something to cover up my unavailibity in your literal world right now.

You must be cutting a cake now.. Ah, doesn't matter cause you are reading it now and I have written this earlier today and I am again sure that there's not a single bit of cake left at your place now. Did you get fat in one day? Cause trust me, you ain't fat...AT ALL!!

Now a little something about you. A little bit about the person I haven't seen till date, but about someone whom I know inside out. I am still a stranger until we officially meet, but you, my dear is something more than just another person to me. 

You came in from nowhere. Ah I agree I started it off, but you responded when you had the option of not responding. If that was a crime I'd like you to take 40% share and become my partner in crime.

Cheeky? Maybe.

Then days went by. I got to know everything about you. I never thought I'd be deserving enough to be a listener to everything you had to say. And that's when I believed I wasn't random to you. I have been a dick sometimes,...... Sometimes... Ok a lot of times..!! Seriously? *Piche hi pad jatein ho* But you have always been a sweetheart...even you tried to be a bitch. ;)

But today is your birthday...and I want to be extremely honest with you.. There are very few things I have come across that have made me believe that I made the wrong choice on June 11th. But the fact that not everything is perfect reminds me to give more importance to the ones that tells me that I made the right decision on that day.

You ain't perfect. Nobody is. You are just close to being one. :)

I have been mad at you a lot of times, but I don't know how, you seem to look beautiful every freaking time. 

Do you look beautiful now? Ah I wish I could stop you from saying your ever famous "NO" and say the opposite myself.

Akshaya Singhal. You became a hope when I had the opportunity to lose it. I knew I had you in my life and you became the best medicine to what I suffered from and you know it very well what I am talking about right now. 

I am a witness to everything that you have come through and I know you are a better and stronger person now. I want you to look at the mirror everyday and feel confident about yourself and say "There is no goddamn lady in this world who can match my looks, I am freakishly gorgeous"

I am not at all exaggerating now..... Maybe a little. Hahahaha. Don't kill me now.

I can't wait to be pushed on the road. And that will be a challenge cause I have a little bit idea about how stupid is Delhi's traffic. 

                   

I hope you had a lovely day... And the loveliest birthday of your life. I know there are things that bothers you, but HEY... Look back and see how well you have recovered. It was you who fought against all odds and now you are in a better position. 

It's Happiness. It's YOU.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=anNRry5yfIQ <-- Do check this out! :D

<3 <3

Happy birthday lady. Happiness for you. A lot from my side too. :)

WHAT CAN BE? CAN BE.. CAN BE...

Well this blog/write up may seem extremely absurd and un-impossible.

[My Dictionary - UN-IMPOSSIBLE means EXTREMELY IMPOSSIBLE, so please don't judge]

I am hereby making some predictions that will, accordingly to me, come true before human beings cease to exist.

Prediction Number 1 - 

"CINEMA will reach a NEW dimension"

Motion Pictures came into existence even before Netaji Subhash Chandra Bose took birth. I know there is no connection between films and Netaji, but I just pointed out for the sake of pointing out. Anyway, lets get directly into the pond. As we know, animation has become a very important part of the film industry in any goddamn corner of the world. Even a porn addict will find it extremely amusing to watch an animated movie like KUNG FU PANDA (my favorite), BOLT, CAROLINE, CLOUDY WITH A CHANCE OF MEATBALLS and bla bla bla......

From Black and White movies to colored ones. From 2D to 3D. We already have a stuff like 7D. Physical effects? Smells? Your chair will start moving and will hump your ass!! Yes that is what they call a 7D. 

Now the Prediction - In another 50 years, if you stay alive, you will get to feel yourself a part of the movie. Special movies will be made where you will be provided with all the effects which will make you feel as if you are a part of the movie. Something like a "20D".

But nothing beats 36D, eh?

Oh btw, I hope you are not wishing a 20D porn movie! Naughtyness ki haad hoti hai...

Prediction Number 2 - 

"A step over SUN"

Yes, this is probably one of the toughest things to achieve for scientists. But as we look back 1000 years from now, most of the things that we see today were either not believed to be true or the people of that world did not have any freaking clue about whatever is happening right now.

"Who would have thought in 1013 that they can learn Kamasutra over the internet instead of sneaking through their princess's balcony"

"Hey Maharaja, I had a prediction that if you stay alive for another 1000 years, I can find you the most beautiful bride from any part of this world from this very Mahal.. It will be known as shaadi sindur com"

Anyway, getting back to the pond, stepping on the sun seems impossible now providing the temperature and also that it is not a solid object like the moon. But this is my prediction and HEY!! I told you not to judge.. Keep reading...Stop judging...stop stop..... STOP!!

Prediction Number 3 -

"India will play Football World Cup"

This is more or less a random prediction, but HEY! This is still the toughest one in the entire Sports fraternity of India. If you look at the game that India plays, I am sure you must be thinking that the day we will qualify for the world cup, Argentina would have won 50 World Cup trophy and Brasil would have happily retired from the game after winning 116 World Cup trophy. It's 2013 and I am sure by that calculation, India's qualification in the World Cup will not be before... Um... 3013!! YES, Exactly 1000 years from NOW!!

Since you have stopped judging me, for a while, this is one of the predictions I partially do not want to be true. I want India to play Football World Cup before I die.

Prediction Number 4  -

"Jobs will be provided in Facebook and Twitter or other Social Networking Website"

Working from Home is quite a popular concept in today's world. Freelancing has become one of the most demanding jobs in the teenage dynasty. Writing articles, inserting data, social media management.... Most of these are nowadays accessed by a person sitting at home. Home Based works do not require any particular timing but might require a particular time frame. 
Anyway, the importance of the prediction is that, very soon, we might come across various jobs that can be done from your home without bearing the pain of going out and working from a particular office.
"Hey can we drive a plane by controlling it from our house?"

"Yes you can, if you don't want to live"

Smartass people everywhere....!! Stick to the point dumbass..

Prediction Number 5 -

"Mobile phones will be available to children belonging among age groups 5-8 and other SHIT.."

Jyoti Basu was the first Indian to use a cell phone in India. That was in the year 1996 when I still did not have any clue about the existence of football. 

Phew!! Long time huh? 

My father got his first cell phone in the year 2002, I guess. He was using a Nokia "MOTA WALA MODEL". Oh freak! You should have seen my face when I touched it. I didn't give it back for the next 12 hours. The snake game was the best thing ever.
Anyway, as we get back to the pond.... Again.. I got my first cell phone at the age of 17 when I got into college. A bit back dated? Maybe, but not outrageously beyond time. The same people around me (read seniors, neighbors, relatives) who criticized me for craving a mobile phone before my high school pass out, have now handed their children a very valuable android phone even before they have completed their Class 10 exams. But everything seems normal now. Because their POVS have changed and handing their child an android has basically become a safety precaution.

To that safety precaution, we say... "LOL"

"Hey brah, got a new Xperia, got the best dad in the world man... So how about you send some porn clips in whatsapp"

"Brah, will do it, look here brah, got some pot... *insert marijuana pics*"

Prediction Number 6 -

"Usage of marijuana will spread rapidly in youngsters"

This is already valid, ain't it? I don't smoke and this is not my problem. Marijuana is now being made legal in some parts of the world. In about 50 years now, the governments of most of the countries will be run by people who once used to smoke up weed...or maybe still does.
If 70% of the teenage group are into smoke ups and marijuana, then these very smart people will run the country one day. In 50 years time, I believe, the ones who will not smoke up will by default get a lifetime achievement award, by just being different.

NOTE - I am no way against the use of marijuana. It's a personal choice and I won't give a fuck until it starts bothering me, personally.

Oh No shut up! I am not criticizing. Just pointing out something that is rapidly becoming viral. 

Got a problem? 
I told you... 

DO NOT J.U.D.G.E

Prediction Number 7 [LAST ONE] -

"The system shall change... Education, political, economic and every deep shit problem we are facing right now"

If you read the topic carefully, I mentioned that the situation will change...
Now the situation will not change a little bit but will involve evolution. Nowhere did I mention the word, positive change. Change will come. Better or worse, only time will tell...

Some wise man once told me :-

The value of  the Dollar is around 60 INR. In 5 years, it will become 70 INR. In 10 years it will become 75 INR. In 15 years, it will become 70 INR. In 30 years, it will become 30 INR......

Now I was very surprised at this prediction. Seemed hayward. I asked him about such a prediction that started off with the worsening economic condition and how did it end up with such impressive rates. The answer that was provided was pretty mesmerizing..

"Let this generation come to power"

I look around and I see a generation which can provide a lot more than the previous generation. We have a lot to learn from our older generation. The smartness our generation possesses can be put to a great cause, ONLY......ONLY IF we decide to do that. But I see selfish people around... I see people who started off with ambitions of becoming a pilot, navy man, army officer, singer, dancer, and ended up in an engineering college trying to get it safe. Now these very people sit back home and tells people "WE NEED TO CHANGE THE SYSTEM"

Abey Ghanta change... How the fuck will we change it if we all look for safe jobs and not bring anything different to this world?

The one change that I have always wished for, is the change in the education system/style.. I still hope for a type of education which won't force you to complete your syllabus for the sake of doing well in your exams. An education system that people will love, a system that will educate us and not pressurize us. Oh common!! Don't you know we all want to learn something every now and then. We are a bunch of curious little fellows and you take it away from us when you force it.
The day teachers won't say anymore "You don't have to know that, it's not there in your syllabus", that will be a day when my childhood dream/prediction will come true.


Hereby making these predictions, I swear to myself that I shall work hard enough to fulfill my dreams and create a difference. The necessary amount of difference that I can provide. 

"Life is not just about living, but to know the purpose of staying alive"

ANGEL...

As I stayed on the phone listening to her silence..
She spoke to me, as if she was standing at quite a distance..

I heard her breaths, her deep little breaths..
I heard her talk to me in her dream..
She called me my name, but I replied to her..
I called her back, she smiled with a beam..

As I now hear her talk to me..
As she quietly rests her mind in her pillow...
I keep smiling with the pretty thoughts of her.
Thoughts that are submerged way below..

But doesn't she look gorgeous even now?
With the least bit of care that bothers her..
Doesn't she look to be the most beautiful one?
With the happiness that belongs only to her!!

Sleep, little dear, keep sleeping with peace in your mind..
Dream of little beauties that you had left behind..

Hope

Jodi tor daak shune keo na ashe..
Tobe Ekla Cholo re....

When Rabindranath Tagore wrote this song, he probably did not realize how beautiful and important will it mean to those around the world who are determined to prove a point. A point which needs to be proved not to anybody else, but to that person himself.

Being a guy, the concept of love seems to be extremely attractive when you start knowing about it. A mere attraction towards the opposite genders makes you believe that you are in love. Your very first crush or infatuation, as they describe it, seems to be the love of your life and even with the limited amount of resources you are provided at the age of 15, you think you can do anything and everything to make your crush happy. 

But it doesn't work out to be like that. You take a lot of time to propose your first crush. You start stammering and get extremely nervous when you are about to say "I Love you" for the first time. But when you reach 20, you realize how things have changed. No you don't tag them as wrong changes or anything negative but you understand that you have come a long way from getting nervous while pronouncing those 3 "supposed to be" magical words.

In those 5 years, from saying "aaaaaai lalalalalalalove ewwww", you now touch a woman's private part without any urge to say that phrase again. It was difficult to express that feeling to your first crush. Now touching and exploiting a woman's body is a piece of cake for you.

Do you like this change? 

>If the answer was supposed to be honest, then the answer is NO. 

But why not? You are getting what every man craves for. To touch a woman and not getting any emotional reactions from her.

>Because even when everything seems so easy, the feeling of being in love always reminds you of happiness. 

Whoever has been in love will admit that it sometimes kills you. Not because you have to blame a person for your sadness but every sane human being become insane when they are in love. Expectations, reactions start escalating in a manner like it becomes extremely difficult for you to control every god damn thing that kills you. 

But it's alright. It's supposed to be alright. Is there any other option other than being alright? Nope. 

The concept of love never disappointed you. You were always young at heart and no matter how many times you had a heartbreak you never stopped giving up. "This time it's going to work and I know it". Even if it didn't, you were already looking forward to the next "adventure".

You are not looking forward now. Neither are you interested in experiencing the adventure anymore. The concept of that vague word disgusts you so much. 

But you have a love interest in your life? So what. If you are supposed to be in love, aren't you supposed to expect things from her. At least a love in return? But you don't do that. So technically, to the world, you are not in love and to yourself the concept of love seems pathetic now. So 2+2 = 4 and you are officially ready to not worry about women anymore, leave aside touching them just for the sake of satisfying your private organ.

You seem to hang on to your possible last love. Although you are unaware of your future, this very girl seems to be the only hope. A hope that's in not related to your miserable prediction of a lonely life but a hope that will keep everything intact. You future plan, your ambitions.. You think everything will turn out well and you will achieve everything if she stays in your life. 

But then again, it's a matter of time when she will leave. For how long will songs inspire you? For how long will you need to inspire yourself? She wants something that you can never provide. Maybe you could have earlier, but you can't provide it anymore. 

So where does that leave you? You have sorted out your plans. You are ready to work hard when the right time comes and it ain't far away! Are you going to wait? Do you wish for something better from her side? Maybe.

Even after 5 years, with all the limited resources provided to you, you think you can do anything and everything to make her happy. You just need her to tell you she is your's.

~~Can we pretend that airplanes In the night sky are like shooting stars?

I can really use a wish right now...~~

Rain rain...Stay away!! Come back soon..

I'll tell you a little thing about "rain". Rain, as we know , it is loved by many, hated by more, blamed by everyone, enjoyed by some. But have you, have you ever gone out immediately after it stopped raining? Have you waited for about 1 hour for the rain to stop and gone out as it stopped pouring down? If yes, you will know something more than other's who haven't done this.

Maybe you have been waiting for the rain to stop so that you can go out and complete your work. But have you just waited near your balcony and waited long to watch it stop and rush out immediately to smell the wet atmosphere while the moist soil looks so freakishly amazing? The smell of that wet soil seems to be the best thing around you at that moment. The wet leaves, the continuous sound of water falling from the 4th floor neighbor's balcony, near your feet. But you still don't mind, because it's rain water. 

But the rain has stopped. Why are you so eager to deal with it when it has already left? Because even when it was raining and it almost stopped the world around you from continuing with their daily works, it has actually gifted you a blissful feeling at the time it went away. You understood its value when it left!!

But unlike a human being, it does not give you unhappy feelings on its departure. Instead it assures you that it is going to come back. But this time, you'll wait for it and it will come back with the same fragrance. 

The joyous feeling I have experienced while being a part of the after-rain effect is pretty much unexplainable. Maybe because of my poor vocabulary skills, but I would still like to keep it to myself than describe it with perfect adjectives. 

The next time it rains, why don't you just wait for it to stop? And You know what to do when it stops, don't you?

Rain rain go away..

Come again another day..

Little Johny wants to smell..

Rain rain just stay away..